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by fly-high0320

shout as a daily life

when i am in home, i think
i wanna use japanese!

when i am in uni, i think
i wanna use english!

hmm, luxury.

yeah, it is true, and it is real problem for me currently.

i am addicted to studying far more than i expected,
dealing with plenty of assignment(really?),
trying to speak up during discussion(trying, that's all), and
staying at library until night(sometimes for chatting).

the good example is 2 or 3 before entry.
at that time, i was truly in tlans.
and today i became super puck :p

i dont know why, but certainly the action studying strongly tempts me.
to know something, to understand something, to shape my idea and to communicate with other opinions. i never felt this process so attractive for 2,3 or 4 ,,, or 22 years.


it would give me lots of precious things, for my knowledge, way of thinking, feeling, and personality itself.


but.


the problem is.


once i go back home and turn on PC, i have no passion to study.
especially when in a bed.

it might be because of cold in this room. it might be because of tiredness after cooking dinner.(why it takes 1.5 hours to cook, eat and clean!?).

but it is too serious.

in japan, ,, ah, i was always in K, so i didnt have such a problem. but yeah, certainly i didnt study in my home, shiho-so-.

now i am being socialized, i have to study in my room.





hmmmm, english is wonderful. before writing, my mind was full of meaningless, unproductive anxiety.(though it is truly important for me maybe,,)
now what i need is just an action. ya, i know i know!
but, one thing at the last time.
i never leave it in past, and would change it future!!
by fly-high0320 | 2007-08-09 22:19